Ok, not many things piss me off... but my Accounting homework is sure doing a good job at it >_<
AHHH!!!!
I have no clue what I am doing really, and I have no choice to but take this class. DARN!!!
*Imagines ripping up book in to little pieces of guinea pig Bedding*
AHHH!!!!!

I was thinking in my tiredness today....
Do I just doodle or do I create art???

@_@

I'm starting to think I just doodle... i don't really produce anything of worth??? Have I lost that spark, i once had?
Sure i draw at work, but it is only layouts and outers.

What kind of drawing do I do?

... um I do hope to post soon, i told some friends I would ^_^;;

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun

I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story
For I am all I've done

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me

I am the one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky

As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die

Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me

Remember me...

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me

Remember me
Remember... me...
-JOSH GROBAN "Remember"

I haven't Posted anything in months
In truth I haven't drawn anything in months (and this isn't just something that happend suddenly, I have slowly stopped)
I kept thinking that oneday a hero on a white horse would bring me out of this slump or like the phoenix I would be resurected and glow brighter then before. But that I know now those thoughts are just fantasy.
I will not completely leave deviant. I just wanted my watchers to know that they shouldn't expect any new work from me for a while. I don't know when I shall post again. But I will keep visiting DA, reading journal, comments and viewing others work. I can't not completly leave this site, cuase I enjoy coming here.

Well if anyone is interested I have started up a sister gallery this gallery features early artwork I did from elementary to highschool. I will update it when I can, cause I have many pieces to show.

This isn't goodbye... I hope to back...

Well Spring break came and went ~_~
I passed my two classes with A's

For Spring break I went to Vegas (with my mom, dad and friend cheryl)... (I wasn't drunk!!! I tells ya... just buzzed). I enjoyed myself and was sorry to leave. There was so much to see and do there! We stayed at the Hilton, my parents got a suite. Our first night there we wandered around the strip, and took the long way back to the hilton (we weren't lost I could see the hotel, just took the long way). the second night I got a drink called Mind meld (aka happy drink)... that was my frist time ever being buzzed, my head was on a swing it was fun ~^_^~. Our last day I didn't feel to well, but I still enjoyed myself. I like the startrek experiance there!!! what was so much fun!!! and the hotels are beautiful along the strip!!! I would love to go again.

The rest of the week I spent with friends.

I missed my doctors appointment (which was my bad, I thought friday was the 29th) ~_~ and I'm out of pills. So I wont be seing the arthitis doc till the middle of may.

Well Tomorrow I start school ~_~ I'll be in class mondays: I'll be away from 5am to 10pm. and I also have class on fridays: I'll be gone 5am to about 6pm. but I have three free days in the middle of the week.
I have mixed feeling about school... but I'm trying not to think about it.... I've had such a good week...
I've felt like jen and I don't wanna spoil it.

Oh I got to see Ryan a couple of weeks back ! he's back in san degio!

I'll try my best to not dissaper... I don't wanna ^_^

I think I had a better spring break this year (i'm gonna read my past journal cause I can't remember)

Quiz time!
How well do you know your Jen???
Lets see! click on the link and take the quiz, its only 10 questions.

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okie... we are going to review the quiz cause it looks like most people have taken it... but if you haven't don't read any farther ^_^

Here are the results:
90: Philip (cheater ^_^)
70: Richard, Cheryl
60:Stephanie, Mike, Autumn
50: Matt, Jakki, Jillas, Debbie, Paul
40:Mark, Miji, Brad, Jessica
30:Kristen, James, Digi sista Sara, Digi sista Kelly
20: Stella, Andrea, Justin
So it looks like 6 have Passed Jen 101... the rest of you will have to repeat the course XD hee hee... I'm Kidding. This quiz was all in fun, I think i had to many triva questions about myself ^_^;;

Then lets review:
1) Whats my Middle name? Erica... I am named after my dad, Eric. Erica would have been my first name if my mom would have had her way. But My dad chose my first name, Jennifer (I was named after some random student in one of his classes).

2)I have a scar on my chest, how did I get this scar? My cat snowball freaked out while I was holding her, and scratched me. I'm not sure what freightend her, I remember I was standing near the restroom, so it might have been the sound of the faucet. She got my chest and under my arms, but only one scratch on my chest scared.

3)How did jen get the attention of her 1st crush, Ben? Held a Gremlin ransom... Yes its true in 6th grade, Ben had this little Gremlin figurine and I stole it and held it for ransome (the ransome was for him to talk to me ^_^;... and It worked, it got him to talk to me and we laughed about it ^_^;; yeah... I was wierd >_<;;

4)When I die what do I want to be buried with? Plushie Simba... I love my simba, even thought its not one of my oldest plushie, I'm quite attached to it( I've cried on him many times, and has kept me company with I sleep so when I take the eternal sleep I want him there with me). I think it cause he is the right size to hold in my arms ^_^;;

What is Jen most afraid of? Lonelyness... Truth is I'm afriad of all those listed, earthquakes, heights and dropping from them and spiders... but lonelyness terrifies me the most. I hate being alone, and when think of my future I see my self alone and that scares me >_<

6)Who gave Jen her 1st and only love letter? James... I hate to say it but it was >___< I still have the letter too. Kinda sad that he is the only one. He put the letter in one of my books after school and told me to read it when I got home. I remember I knew what it was and freaked out cuase I didn't want to hurt him, but I was flattered cuase someone liked me. I don't think Jay and Ryan ever saw me that way, not with so many other more attactive girls in the nieghborhood. I don't think Ben shared the same feelings.

7) what is jen's favorite color? Blue... I like any shade any of blue.

8)How do you spell Jen's last name? Tourtillott

9)What inspired young jen to pick up a pencil and draw? Jurassic Park... the first picture I drew for fun was a picture of Tim and the Raptors in the Kitchen, before that I only drew pictures in class of arttime. After that I started drawing dinosaurs and it snowballed after the Lionking(thats when I decided to do animation).

10) Why does Jen like sugar cookies? because they were given to you as a gift from Jay and Ryan... One year for Chirstmas the Ingels gave me baked goods and those were the best sugar cookies ever ~^_^~

well thats it... thanks everyone for taking my quiz *hugs*
love you all ^_^